Femara Day 3

Well, here I am taking fertility drugs. I like these 2008 drugs so far. I picked up my script and started taking my pill twice a day. I'll see the RE on Wed and find out what I am supposed to do next. I have a whatever will be, will be attitude. My RE says it is because I already have one child so that is why I am not as uptight as I was 5 years ago. No obvious bad side effects yet. Have twingy feelings in my right ovary and am sleeping very soundly. Today had lots of energy...did all kinds of domestic activities - shopping, gardening, cooking, laundry, ironing (?!?WTF) in addition to my work/ mom duties. Crazy...it may not be the drugs...my mom is coming for a visit and I am preparing the household for inspection!!!!

Let's forget about this week

I woke up on Monday, dizzy, feverish, and in no shape to go to work. Thankfully dh had a holiday and took wee one off to school while I dozed and drank sprite. At noon the school called and wee one was running a fever. She got home, looking flushed, tired and I got 104 on the thermometer and had the tylenol ready. That night she woke and caused me some panic again as she ran up to 104. We spent a few hours together, tylenoling/ motrining, and cool washclothing. I almost called the ER...however, the temp came down to 101 and we both fell asleep. I woke up not sick and wee one was still sick but seemingly better. I decided not to take her to the doctor as she was giggling and eating a large tortilla. I stayed home with her and after her nap the fever came back. I called the doctor and made an appointment. We saw the doctor who thought it was a throat infection and gave her some antibiotics. It was a full house at her office, but the building she is in has valet parking! Awesome.... Today, wee one has no fever and spit her medicine out this morning. I have concealed it in some chocolate milk and am hoping for the best. Oh...and my sitter threw her back out this week too...Over and out...

Preschool stress

I didn't think I was going to be doing this so soon....stressing over school for my kid. Well I did it a bit last year too over the parents day out program, huh! I went to visit the best preschool (at least that is what all my friends, family, etc. are telling me) in town and sent in an application. Apparently there was a huge baby boom 3 years ago and there is now a waiting list. There used to not be in the past years, but of course, now there is. It is probably the perfect school other that it is totally on the other side of our town, just about as far away as you can be from our house without going outside the city limits. I am thinking I am a weenie, but can I really handle getting up a hour earlier than usual, dressing wee one (who refused to change out of her pjs last week twice) and making the drive to get her to school at 8:15 and getting to work on time? No more lolling in bed while the nanny shows up or leisurely getting ready for mother's day out which starts at 9:30 am. I will keep my babysitter, hopefully she will be able to pick her up for lunch and nap in the afternoons.

This is a real school, going all the way up to 6th grade (we may or may not stay as we have good public schools). I am not really stressed about academic stuff or things like that, I just want wee one to have some everyday kid interactions and not just be out and about the town with the nanny. I have received some signs that this is the place: the principal taught my dh and my sil in high school, my 2 closest friends have their kids there, I keep running into people who go there. But the biggest obstacle may be this: toilet trained! Oh, well, if not by then, we'll do another year of more leisurely life.

A Fat Lip

Wee one did a face plant Sunday while I was at a church meeting and my MIL was babysitting. She seemed fine when I got home (MIL was very worried), but when she got up from her nap I noticed her lower lip was very swollen and that there was dried blood every where. Yikes! There was one wiggly front tooth, and I decided as she seemed ok otherwise and was drinking milk, I would just watch her. She did fine, the lip swelling more in the evening, but I did take her to the Pedi dentist yesterday and he took an xray. Everything is going to be ok, the tooth is a bit loose but should tighten up. Today she looks even better. Poor thing...she loved the dentist's office...totally geared for kids.

Bedtime Temper Tantrums

We have been dealing with a few months of pushing the limits types of temper tamtrums
at bedtime. This weekend we converted the crib to toddler bed mode hoping it would help. It has somewhat (and she is staying in her bed most of the night), but she is really trying to see what she can get away with. The best way I have dealt with it is to ignore her when she behaves to the contrary and she usually comes around and does what she needs to do. A lot of it is a power struggle. What she wants vs. what I/ dad wants her to do. She stayed in pajamas all day today as the babysitter couldn't get her to change! Oh boy, wait till we get to the teen years!

Femara, a new hope

I went to see my RE the other day for a general check up and to discuss what she thought about me getting help to get pregnant again. I had a good checkup and she scanned my pissed ovary, which turned out to show it had just ovulated. She told me it was time to try and offered up a new drug she is using instead of clomid, Femara. I am to call her when Aunt Flo shows up. I felt pretty sure I want to do this again, but after this week of pain and my visit with her, I am not sure again. Conflicted, unsure, etc. I told my dh and now I am worried he will run off with a younger, more fertile person. (I have a history of men leaving me...leftover baggage) After a fitful night of sleep and weird dreams, I am still not quite sure but I thought, I am stronger, better, more fertile than I may think and dh is an idiot if he would do something like that (any man would be). Some of it maybe after talking with my mom, she told me she doesn't think I should do the "shots" again. technically, femara is pills, so maybe I should think/ pray about it more.
My dh would like for us to get pregnant the old fashioned way (I would too), but he was there with me through thick and thin of the stuff leading up to IVF. Perhaps, I am just content now to have the three of us...terrible twos really makes me reconsider having another one.

Gung Hay Fat Choy!

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! It is the year of the Rat (my dh). I forgot until now and at dinner I made Tostadas. Oh well, todos hacen un ano bueno.

My ovary is pissed

Saturday morning, I woke up with a funny lower back pain that I attributed to having worked a very long stressful week. It got worse over the day and I felt a little better after a warm bath. I joked to my dh that it was probably my ovary as it was 2 week ago that AF came. I figured a good night's sleep and I would be fine. Well, I woke up better but the pain came back and I felt swollen over my right lower abdomen area. More pain killers...I busted out the ones from my surgery I had this summer. Today it got worse and I couldn't concentrate on my work so I called up my doc and they got me in. He agreed with me that it was likely my ovary...cyst prob but it didn't feel humongous or anything. He gave me more painkillers and I have an ultrasound on Wed. It is mostly bearable except at night when I want to sleep so I take something. I hate taking something, but it helps me get some rest. I have this thought that my mind has now told my body it wants another baby and the egg is struggling to get out but is stuck in my ovary....blame it all on hormones. I am exhausted by the pain and hope it resolves soon.