Memories

I had a brain bloop today and for a few moments I was having a flashback of emotions. I was feeling all those feelings of trying, failing, wanting, trying again, failing, trying, trying, failing, crying, trying, etc of inferility treatments. That everything that reminded me of babies or being invited to events where there would be babies, pregnant women just made me cringe deep down inside. How unfair it was that it seemed to me that so many people took their fertility for granted. And then I came back to the present and how I thought that past me would not be able to be around the present me without breaking down and being envious.