Wanna be like Mom

I signed up for vacation bible school refreshments yesterday at the VBS meeting at our church. I feel proud to be following in my mother's footsteps as Queen of Refreshments at summer VBS. I was always her helper, feeding hungry little kids. I did one day last year too. So I was thinking, am I paying tribute to her, doing what our family does best (feeding people) or am I just trying to live up to her example? Part of this is I am thinking, ok, what have I gotten myself into? Things to know - this is a new church, and apparently with a very, very large turnout of kids each summer, I work outside the home at least 6-7 hours a day, and I still have a little one in diapers. I am nuts, huh? Well, maybe I am just used to being an overachiever or just busy.

Certainly, it is not the hardest job at this thing (Don't make me do a drama presentation, etc) and I have done similar before. I will have helpers and usually the kitchen is the favorite hangout of everyone else so it should be fun.

Old

So, am I too old and too tired to even be attempting to go without birth control? I have IVF with #1 and then fertility drugs (femara) for #2 and years of no contraception while trying to have them. So, I had used again after #2, an IUD that made me so crazy I pulled it out and then pills that have caused me to have a menstrual cycle every 2-3 weeks. And now for the past 2 weeks, I have not used anything. For the last 3 years I have been very certain that I am done. For the past few weeks, I am not sure. I mean, yeah, I am old. 40, not 30, not 25, not even 38. I am tired. I have 2 kids under the age of 6. I work outside the home, about 30 hours a week. I have to have help - dh, nanny, family in town. And my nanny is getting near retirement age. So the obvious answer would be to talk to my gyn about doing some other method or doing a permanent type of no more babies. But it is that ambivelence, that crazy what about if I could even have another one. Or that is so unlikely I would get pregnant it's not worth the hassle to my body. My dh does know and he feels he is still young enough for more kids, sort of, hah!

Lazy Mom

We've had a nice spring break in this part of the world. My dh and I took off to New York City for a few days and came back refreshed, renewed, and relaxed. The GP's came and minded the kids and it was so nice not to change a diaper for 4 whole days!!!

I am still feeling lazy as my parents are still here (until tomorrow)and there are extra hands in the house to help. Monday is coming up soon and it will be back to normal life. Part of me is happy about that and part of me wishes this time off to linger on.

Pink hair

I was visiting a blog about food and linked to one named Tired Mom Diaries. I believe I found my Halloween twin. Here's me as my alter ego:

I miss blogging

I am so happy that there is still some blogging going on here. Facebook has claimed most of my (limited) internet time now and it has been fun to catch up with old friends. It's easy to check in with my phone when I have a moment. But it doesn't allow for extended thoughts and the veil of anonymity that this medium allows for.

So I will be back trying to blog more. Last night I was reading through some of my posts in 2008 and relived the memories of that year. It felt good to do that and I laugh at some of the things I have written. The comments tab is new to me and I deleted the spam and was touched by all the comments that were given to me that year. Quake Shaken Momma, Dee, Day, Irish Girl, Galloping Cat, I've missed you all.

Blogging lives!

Be Grateful

I was browsing thru a women's magazine today and came upon an article about gratitude. It was unique for me in that it suggested to write the problem thing you have down, cross it out and the write an item that is counter to that for which you are grateful. So, I will try that here now:

One employee at my work has a bad attitude.
One employee at my work has a bad attitude.

Everyone else I work with has a good or even great attitude.



Lou lou makes big messes and doesn't clean up after her craft projects.
Lou lou makes big messes and doesn't clean up after her craft projects.

Lou lou makes Valentines for me all year round.


OK, I'll do one more to make it a set of 3.

My dh doesn't cook and is clueless in the kitchen sometimes.
My dh doesn't cook and is clueless in the kitchen sometimes.

My dh washes the dishes and will gladly bring home take-out whenever I ask (or take me out when we can).

Dinner Table

Girls sitting at dinner table eating happily and hungrily tonight. What's for dinner? Mommy's homemade macaroni and cheese? Her wonderful tortilla veggie soup? He exquisite poached chicken with onion mushroom sauce and steamed rice? No, No, and No. McDonald's Happy Meals and corn on the cob from Long John Silvers. Drive thru dinner as one parent is out at a meeting and the other is tired.