Old

So, am I too old and too tired to even be attempting to go without birth control? I have IVF with #1 and then fertility drugs (femara) for #2 and years of no contraception while trying to have them. So, I had used again after #2, an IUD that made me so crazy I pulled it out and then pills that have caused me to have a menstrual cycle every 2-3 weeks. And now for the past 2 weeks, I have not used anything. For the last 3 years I have been very certain that I am done. For the past few weeks, I am not sure. I mean, yeah, I am old. 40, not 30, not 25, not even 38. I am tired. I have 2 kids under the age of 6. I work outside the home, about 30 hours a week. I have to have help - dh, nanny, family in town. And my nanny is getting near retirement age. So the obvious answer would be to talk to my gyn about doing some other method or doing a permanent type of no more babies. But it is that ambivelence, that crazy what about if I could even have another one. Or that is so unlikely I would get pregnant it's not worth the hassle to my body. My dh does know and he feels he is still young enough for more kids, sort of, hah!